i cant help but wonder why.....why does it feel like i'm about to die

i cant help but wonder why
why does it feel like i'm about to die

why am i not able to decide
between facing challenges and suicide

why is it forbidden to cry
so no one even bothers to try

i cant help but wonder why
why does it feel like i'm about to die

why every happiness in other i see
brings chills to my body with envy

why do every sorrow i see
seems like they have been cursed by me

i cant help but wonder why
why does it feel like i'm about to die

why does every breath i take
is just not for my own sake

why does every "no" i say
taken as disrespect and despair

i cant help but wonder why
why does it feel like i'm about to die

                                                                                                        -mariha